So, recently Casey wrote one entitled "The moments I want punch you." This one will be quite similar. Thanks for the inspiration.
I need to express my desire to kick people in the shins sometimes. Its not that I really want to put a steel-toe boot to the front of the leg, I just wanna kinda knock them in the head like they do on the v8 commercials. So, lets imagine that these continuous "You could've had a v8's" are me bonking them on the forehead, trying to wake them up and bring them to their senses.
Dear you-know-who-you-are: I'm sick of this one-sided relationship. I put so much effort into trying to be your friend, and I get nothing back. I realize that living in different places makes communicating and hanging out difficult, but at least try. Im tired of talking to you and getting one-word responses. Its like talking to a brick wall. We used to be best friends. I wonder what happened there. And the funny thing is, we have more in common now than we have ever had. Please, tell me how that works. I want to know about your life and your struggles, but I can't very well see them when you won't let anyone, not even yourself, try to help you through them. I care about you, man. We've been through this before, but this time it feels different... and not in a good way. Dude, You could've had a V8.
Dear friendthatIlovedearly: AHHH! Can I just throw out there how incredible you are? You have so many things about you that make you unique, fun and a great friend, but for some reason your self esteem is so low that you don't even respect yourself or your abilities. I remember you coming back from that conference a couple summers ago. You were so on fire and ready to change things. You had friends that wanted to help you see that change through, but then he came along. And listen, I really do like him. He's a great and funny guy, but look what you did to get him to be with you. I wanna be your friend, and I can tell that you wanna be mine. But when you're not happy, its not that easy. You could've had a V8.
Dear myfavoritepersonever: I love the crap outta you, and I tell you that frequently. You have so much going for you: beauty, athleticisms, brains, a great personality... I just think that you need to go for what you want and not listen to what other people are telling you. You don't HAVE to be with someone. You can find contentment being single, trust me. Wait for the good guys, they'll come. You could've had a V8.
Dear person-whom-I-admire: Just go. Don't hold back. You could've had a V8.
Dear me: quit being so insecure. you're an average guy. quit comparing yourself to other people and their relationship with their friends, parents, families and God. quit trying to make yourself more like them. instead, make yourself more like the real you. i saw the real you come out not too long ago, but i know you like to hide it. you're afraid that they will judge you. go ahead, be silly, make some noise, break the rules if you must. oh, and quit trying to please everyone in the whole entire world. its not possible. you better get your head screwed on right before you head off to lead people later this summer. quit settling for mediocracy, you're better than that and you know it. don't let people push you around or let them press their ideals on you. figure out what you believe and why, but don't be scared to ask the hard questions and dig deep because you know thats when you're the most satisfied. don't put up another mask this year, because the longer it stays up, the harder it is to take it off. You definitely could've had a V8.
