Drowning

I find it disheartening when I go to church, and the only people that talk to me are the ones that I already know.

I find it disheartening that our preacher feeds us the word so incredibly well, but I can't seem to fit into the community in my church yet.

I find it disheartening when I'm asked to invest my time in the church, but no one from the church except the pastor is investing in me.

I find that I'm drowning in my own heart. I'm fully immersed in the messages, but can't seem to penetrate the surface with the community. I'm flailing my arms, trying to find balance and safety.