Hello. My name is Seth.
I'm a type-A personality.
I'm extremely organized. Probably too organized.
I rarely miss a homework assignment.
I'm in charge of lots of campus events.
My closet is separated by colors.
My food cupboards are separated by cans, boxes, and snacks.
I love a good agenda and often make daily to do lists.
I've had my life planned since my junior year of high school.
School. Choir tour summer. School. Choir tour summer. Graduate early. Move to school. Choir tour summer. School. Christmas break. School. Cancun.
Wait. Cancun's over. What's next, you ask?
Um...
ehr...
eh...
You know. I haven't thought that far ahead.
Last week I rushed into a decision and accepted a job in Wichita so that I could stay in town, work, and be with my friends. Now, I'm second guessing that decision. I do want to stay in Wichita. I do want to spend time with my friends. I do want to work and earn money. BUT, I do not want to work off campus during the school year.
I want free time on the weekends.
I want to go camping.
I want to host Sale Vale Verde (copyright Sale Vale Panqueques)
I want to do shows.
"I want" all of these things. But what does the Spirit want of me? Did I even stop to consider that before I took all of the necessary steps to pursue this job? Am I being selfish?
Hello. My name is Seth. And I have no idea what I'm doing.
well, a very special person once told me, that when we make decisions, and we make them honestly, whether they are what we should've done or shouldn't have done, God will work with them. Who knows how much time it's going to take away from other things? Maybe it'll not work out how you want it, and then who's to say you can't quit? Are you under a contract that says you have to stay there a certain amount of time? And maybe, it'll lead you to something great, or teach you something worthwhile. You're going to learn something from your decision either way. So since you made it, go with it. Look for the many great things that can come from it and continue to ask God how to do His will in the position you're in. He'll work with you. He's not going to say, "Seth didn't do what I wanted Him to, now I'm going to stop working in His life until He gets back on the track that He's supposed to be on." It's going to be awesome either way, Seth. You made a decision and the only thing you need to worry about now is continuing to be the Godly man that you are, wherever you are, whatever you're doing!
ReplyDeleteohhhh seth this is exactly what God has been teaching me this summer! i'm sure you've heard this before, but someone once said, "if you want to make God laugh, make plans." I'm SUCH a planner, and when things don't go the way I had planned them, i freak out. but God is seriously showing me his amazing sovereignty and that his plan is always way better than our plan, or lack of plan. it's so hard for me to give up that control i like to have, but i'm learning that its amazing to see how he works when we completely surrender to him.
ReplyDeletekeep it up! i'm right there with you!